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“If I tried to paint any other picture (externally) to placate society's discomfort with imperfection, I may not have arrived at this place (internally), this peace I found following my own heart/soul/voice + painting my own “picture” of what I want life to look like. This open canvas is mine to decide what brush strokes to fill it with...”

Four.

“Happy FOURTH birthday my little “super-hero/ warrior-girl,” you are a dream come true and I have never been more proud of anything in this world than I am of you. I'm sorry you're so much like me-- but I hope one day those trait(s) I passed down to you, including your sensitivity, serve you well. After all, you ARE stronger than a thousand warriors.”

Love On, Little Man.

"I think there’s a reason many species are matriarchal in the animal kingdom—Mamas are freaking fierce. Many talk about the abnormal strength you get via adrenaline when we’re face-to-face with fierce physical obstacles—but we don’t talk about the abnormal strength you get via oxytocin, when faced with the emotional complexity and obstacles of love. Both hormones give you the means to protect—but one also gives you the reason to. And I (subjectively) think the reason to is a lot more powerful... Love"

(un)happy 5th anniversary.

“We both wanted children more than we’ve ever wanted anything in our entire lives—and parenting was something that came so naturally to both of us—you are truly the best things that ever happened to either of us, I know no other statement to be more true. You are our everything—and I hope every day for the rest of your lives, you know this with every fiber of your being. You are our hearts and souls outside our bodies, created in love, and will be raised with love—just from different households...”

Memoirs of a former parent judge(r).

“Can we all just talk about the fear perpetuating elephant in the room? When it comes to parenting and well, life, can we all just admit we have no idea what the hell we’re doing (and that’s OK) while also acknowledging that each one of us is doing the best we can. And oh dear god, stop the shaming...”

Moments.

“At the end of each day, I recognize that I have more than I’ll ever need and those before mentioned hesitations were just that, unnecessary hesitations. It was my own lack of confidence to be a mother or maybe the need to feel that everything needed to be perfect that got in my own way, otherwise, I would have had you oh-so-much-sooner. We may not be in a house yet, but you’re here, happy & healthy, so to me, that’s a ‘perfect’ time and condition...”